If there is a term that can be used for someone who tries to analyse the probability of an event/occurrence/response/reaction then it would truly apply to me because that's something that I have been doing very religiously for over a year now and the interesting part is I am still clueless and haven't deciphered anything that I have been trying to and has left me wondering.
Sounds confusing, isn't it?
An optimist would copy Plato's thoughts saying "Wonder is the feeling of the philosopher, and philosophy begins in wonder". Well, am not sure if I am heading towards it but there are possibilities which may or may not drift me away.
Sometimes I'm confused by what I think is really obvious. But what I think is really obvious obviously isn't obvious...”
Some portion of my brain and its partner who is linked by neurons, oh wait! no, a larger portion of it is going through a trauma of uncertainty and unlikelihood of unexpected instances to happen and it seems to be taking a toll on me and in fact is driving me nuts and at times repents for abandoning the science world of psychology which might have fetched some closer solution. Why am I talking nonsensical when I know it ain't a mystery as it appears to be. It could be because of the intensity of the signal strength from the source to the destination and the pattern it follows from time to time. The interesting factor is that there cant be an inference derived upon the analysis made as the pattern doesn't really follow a pattern and the result is "no trending".
So, in the process of my analysis I figured out one thing and it makes me feel good. The key finding is that I never hated Physics and Biology (as I had assumed earlier) but Computers!!!
We all know that music can be a great stress-buster especially when its soothing and it eventually keeps playing on 'repeat'. At the moment am finding it hard to let go off this decade old song and switch on to the next one in my playlist.
Its undoubtedly the perfect blend of Marc Anthony's magical voice, the beautiful lyrics and the background score.
You sang to me!
Oh
I just wanted you to comfort me
When I called you late last night you see
I was fallin' into love
Yes, I was crashin' into love
Oh of all the words you sang to me
About life, the truth and being free, yeah
You sang to me, oh how you sang to me
Girl, I live off how you make me feel
So I question all this being real
'Cause I'm not afraid to love
For the first time I'm not afraid of love
Oh, this day seems made for you and me
And you showed me what life needs to be
Yeah, you sang to me, oh you sang to me
All the while you were in front of me I never realized
I just can't believe I didn't see it in your eyes
I didn't see it, I can't believe it
Oh but I feel it
When you sing to me
How I long to hear you sing beneath the clear blue skies
And I promise you this time I'll see it in your eyes
I didn't see it, I can't believe it
Oh but I feel it
When you sing to me
Just to think you live inside of me
I had no idea how this could be
Now I'm crazy for your love
Can't believe I'm crazy for your love
The words you said you sang to me
And you showed me where I wanna be
Yeah you sang to me, oh you sang to me
All the while you were in front of me I never realized
I just can't believe I didn't see it in your eyes
I didn't see it, I can't believe it
Oh but I feel it
When you sing to me
How I long to hear you sing beneath the clear blue skies
And I promise you this time I'll see it in your eyes
I didn't see it, I can't believe it
Oh but I feel it
When you sing to me
All the while you were in front of me I never realized
I just can't believe I didn't see it in your eyes
I didn't see it, I can't believe it
Oh but I feel it
When you sing to me
How I long to hear you sing beneath the clear blue skies
And I promise you this time I'll see it in your eyes
I didn't see it, I can't believe it
Oh but I feel it
When you sing to me
All the while you were in front of me I never realized
I just can't believe I didn't see it in your eyes
I didn't see it, I can't believe it
Oh but I feel it
When you sing to me
How I long to hear you sing beneath the clear blue skies
And I promise you this time I'll see it in your eyes
I didn't see it, I can't believe it
Oh but I feel it
...and...the addiction continues!!!
To top it all, here is something that flashed into my mind for seconds.
Deep in my thoughts
as I hear the most romantic music
I only wished you were here to look into my eyes and hold me close
